30.01.2022
This week I have focused on sitting within my own energy and releasing a lot of my past beliefs. One that has stood out the most to me is how many of my goals (past and present) have been driven by ego.
Just because I can
That baseless need to prove something to myself, something that no longer needs proving. Coming to this conclusion has honestly felt like coming home after a long and painful journey.
For a long time, I abandoned the things I truly cared about and instead turned to chasing fads.
People are building courses. I should build a course.
Gurus say get on Instagram. I should do that.
I never stopped to ask myself what it was that I wanted, what made my own heart beat faster. The irony is just how simple the answer to that question is. There is only one thing that I really care about and that is a story, in every shape, form, size, a good story will always do it for me. Nothing more than that.
It is when I am working with or on a story that I find myself the lightest, and I am so glad I see it now. There’s nothing else I want to do but tell stories.
So my goals have changed a little bit. This year, and every year after this one, I want to tell stories. I want to explore storytelling in all its forms, all its shapes.
Since making this decision I have;
written and sent a manuscript to a children’s book publisher
started a course on Writing for Film and TV (and even outlined my first script from an old short story)
signed up for a 28-day flash fiction challenge starting Feb 1. I will be writing a new 500-word story every day for the whole month.
sent another old short story to a journal
attended my book club meeting for the first time in almost a year
This has been one of my most productive and happiest weeks in a long time. I am doing all the things I abandoned, the things I should have always been doing but I convinced myself I wasn’t good enough.
I am really grateful to be here. I am happy I found my way back.
Find what makes you happy, and if you already have, don’t let go of it.
Cheers,
Zully
Now Playing: From Now On (The Greatest Showman)
These are the lyrics that come to my mind as I type this newsletter
“For years and years, I chased their cheers
The crazy speed of always needing more
But when I stop and see you here, I remember who all this was for”